I am the Victim | A Letter for You

A Letter for You from Esau
I have always seen myself as a champion.

 

I am the firstborn. I am a skillful hunter, the great man of the field.

I am strong.

For me, it’s no surprise that I have found favor in the eyes of my father, Isaac. I have every quality that he could be proud of.

As an eldest son, I know I am destined for greatness and I am confident that I will surely get there.

But my brother ruined everything.

Twice, he has taken what was rightfully mine.

The rage and hatred I felt towards him is enough for me to desire his death.

I wanted to kill him.

My heart is full of resentment and indignation for him.

It was supposed to be me!

The blessings, the life full of purpose, it’s all supposed to be mine!

In my desperation, I sought and begged everything to be back in my life with weeping at the feet of my father, but it was too late.

My tears were in vain.

I wanted to contend and take revenge for the injustice my brother has caused me but I know in my heart it’s of no use. It won’t turn back time.

Because the words, the blessings had been uttered.

And I was not there to claim it as my own.

Was it my fault? No! I am the victim here.

My brother is the deceiver. His name even says it all.

Or perhaps, somewhere between that little stew I took from my brother after that very tiring hunt and this grieving heart of mine, I did something I should have never done.

I am too preoccupied with all the glamour that comes from being the first born that I failed to value the most essential right someone could ever possess. A right that is far more precious than any power or earthly status.

My birthright.

I treated it with contempt and traded it … for a bowl of lentil stew.

Yes, what my brother did to me was reprehensible but it never could have happened if I valued my birthright in the first place. If I held it tightly with all my heart.

It is true, what people say, that you would only realize how precious something is when it’s already gone.

But it doesn’t always have to be like that.

It doesn’t always have to be like my story.

I never experienced the fullness of the blessings that comes from having my birthright because I gave it away in exchange of something that would satisfy my temporal need.

Never, ever, do the same.

Do not belittle the things that God has given you because nothing is too insignificant especially if it comes from Him.

Whenever you are tempted to compromise and give away your birthright like what happened to me, always remember that the Lord’s destiny for you is far more valuable than your own fleshly desires.

Embrace your identity. Embrace who you are. Keep in mind the things of God. Set your mind on the eternal, not the temporal.

Always think about the long term consequences of your decisions. Because God wants the best live for you and has prepared everything for you to have it. The question is, do you want it too?

 

Hoping you’ll choose the right decisions,
Esau

Read more about Esau – Genesis 36:8-18; Joshua 24:4; Genesis 25:34, 27:5, 38, 41-42; Malachi 1:3; Obadiah 1:18

 

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4 Comments

  • Noribel Domingo

    Wow.. I am reminded of my identity in Christ that i traded many years.. But i praise God for i am His daughter.. He always wanted me to be in His side.. Although i strayed He is now bringing me back in His arms.. I may be experienceing pain right now but i trust in Him with the process..

    • cbnasiaprayercenter

      Praise the Lord, Noribel! Thank you for sharing. Remember what Psalm 73:26 (NIV) says, “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” May this give you encouragement. God bless you!

  • Marco caguiat

    Amen

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